Its been a while....yours truly life has changed 360 degrees...work, relationship, family, personal...:( at this right moment, sadness is the only word that i can think of. :(
Oh Allah....please guide me with strength.....guide me to your path....the test that you are bestowing me is making me crumble....yet at the corner of my lil heart i know these tests i am facing is your gift for me....
Silently, i made a wish every night i could run away from whatever i m facing. Run as far as i could...Just vanish from my own zone....I do not want to face the hideous creatures at work. I am scared...I do not want to carry the responsibility of an eldest daughter...its tiring... I do not want to live her in Singapore anymore....I am surrounded with fake humans and environment. I wanna run away from US. Cos its hurting freaking much.....the emotion turmoil that is engulfing me is beyond description. Carry me away oh Allah to your holy land....Leave me there.....Allow me to cleanse myself....
His words scares me...make me drop still on the ground....all these years of love feels as if its fake...:'( are you giving me your hints and clue ya Allah...cos indeed im clueless...The sandcastles i built in the air throughout the years goes POOF and disappear the moment he pour out his feelings....oh Allah....if he is the one for me, guide me will all the strength to fight for this love.....if he is meant for someone else, guide me will all the strength to let him go...no matter how much i want us, YOU know best ya ALLAH. I am suppressed with all these strong emotions that i feel suffocated....Much as i MISS him, i MISS YOU more ya ALLAH....loads MORE.......
dear, i pray and hope we are meant for each other....i luv ya..but maybe u deserve better....:'(
Its been a while....yours truly life has changed 360 degrees...work, relationship, family, personal...:( at this right moment, sadness is the only word that i can think of. :(
Oh Allah....please guide me with strength.....guide me to your path....the test that you are bestowing me is making me crumble....yet at the corner of my lil heart i know these tests i am facing is your gift for me....
Silently, i made a wish every night i could run away from whatever i m facing. Run as far as i could...Just vanish from my own zone....I do not want to face the hideous creatures at work. I am scared...I do not want to carry the responsibility of an eldest daughter...its tiring... I do not want to live her in Singapore anymore....I am surrounded with fake humans and environment. I wanna run away from US. Cos its hurting freaking much.....the emotion turmoil that is engulfing me is beyond description. Carry me away oh Allah to your holy land....Leave me there.....Allow me to cleanse myself....
His words scares me...make me drop still on the ground....all these years of love feels as if its fake...:'( are you giving me your hints and clue ya Allah...cos indeed im clueless...The sandcastles i built in the air throughout the years goes POOF and disappear the moment he pour out his feelings....oh Allah....if he is the one for me, guide me will all the strength to fight for this love.....if he is meant for someone else, guide me will all the strength to let him go...no matter how much i want us, YOU know best ya ALLAH. I am suppressed with all these strong emotions that i feel suffocated....Much as i MISS him, i MISS YOU more ya ALLAH....loads MORE.......
dear, i pray and hope we are meant for each other....i luv ya..but maybe u deserve better....:'(
the strong emotions
