There was a part where the msg goes - " kita eksen2 tgh courtship days ah. kanz awak suka."
Yes no doubt those period meant a lot. I would never trade those times for any others. I was myself - period.
Yours truly is still in that state, with no desire to do or think anything. Though i miss our times as badly as it can get, the heart just do not want to make any step.
As what i say to him, "let nature take its course".
Thats not me. I have always fight for what i want. Be it rebelling or just charge all the way. I will not let anything or anyone decide for me. Its not about ego but shouldn't we make an effort for things that we want and if the things are not meant to be ours then yah so be it. @ least we make an effort aint it? Where have that attitude gone? Lost too?
As i sat in front of him having my Ban Mian ytd, i could sense the lost aura from us. The unhappiness b/n us. or rather dissapointment? I wanted and yes i wanted to caress his lovely cheeks and make my face like a monkey trapped-in-the-tree so that he would laugh heartily. I know he would love that but the time wasn't right or is it just me?
It breaks my heart to see his face when i am so not myself. There were times when i refrain myself from doing things i used to with him. Love, all i could say is I am sorry.
Maybe indulging ourselves in our courtship days will do us Good? There is a part of me which says yes tho. He went out ytd to play his all-fav Dota and i said nothing. During our courtship days, i never say nething. so yah. mayb thats the way. If i am here feeling all kinds of emotions, it must be the same for him i guess. Not sure but ther is such thing as a maybe. I went back on my own from causeway point just as how we used to be back then. I am happy with that? Yes i am. Before parting which is to go home lahz, i hug him. Oh hw i feel that i miss him truckloads when doing so. I hope to see better days ahead.
There was a part where the msg goes - " kita eksen2 tgh courtship days ah. kanz awak suka."
Yes no doubt those period meant a lot. I would never trade those times for any others. I was myself - period.
Yours truly is still in that state, with no desire to do or think anything. Though i miss our times as badly as it can get, the heart just do not want to make any step.
As what i say to him, "let nature take its course".
Thats not me. I have always fight for what i want. Be it rebelling or just charge all the way. I will not let anything or anyone decide for me. Its not about ego but shouldn't we make an effort for things that we want and if the things are not meant to be ours then yah so be it. @ least we make an effort aint it? Where have that attitude gone? Lost too?
As i sat in front of him having my Ban Mian ytd, i could sense the lost aura from us. The unhappiness b/n us. or rather dissapointment? I wanted and yes i wanted to caress his lovely cheeks and make my face like a monkey trapped-in-the-tree so that he would laugh heartily. I know he would love that but the time wasn't right or is it just me?
It breaks my heart to see his face when i am so not myself. There were times when i refrain myself from doing things i used to with him. Love, all i could say is I am sorry.
Maybe indulging ourselves in our courtship days will do us Good? There is a part of me which says yes tho. He went out ytd to play his all-fav Dota and i said nothing. During our courtship days, i never say nething. so yah. mayb thats the way. If i am here feeling all kinds of emotions, it must be the same for him i guess. Not sure but ther is such thing as a maybe. I went back on my own from causeway point just as how we used to be back then. I am happy with that? Yes i am. Before parting which is to go home lahz, i hug him. Oh hw i feel that i miss him truckloads when doing so. I hope to see better days ahead.
best ah
